Pictures of the Cutest Baby Ever©

We bought him some sunglasses, as you can see. He looks awesome in them. I didn't think he'd like wearing them, but he seemed ok with them on. We'll have to see how it goes when he wears them for a longer period of time. He'll like them on his walks I hope.

I love how his socks look like soccer socks. It's so cute!

Almost Three Months

Picture Time! These are pictures of Logan on his 2 month birthday. Sorry it took me so long to post them, he's almost three months now!









He's so damn cute. He talks a lot more now, and is starting to try to figure out how to control his tongue. He sticks is out all the time and tries to move it. When I talk to him he stares at my mouth and tries to make the same shapes with it. He's just awesome.

He got his first shots about a week ago. It was awful...he cried so hard and then I started crying. I think I scared the nurse or something because she left the room pretty quick. I feel bad for her though, she probably gets an earful from a lot of mother's in that situation. I thanked her though, but she said, "I'm gonna leave before you change your mind."

School starts soon, that's gonna suck. I'm only taking one class though, Calculus, so I'll still be able to breastfeed pretty easily methinks.

Speaking of which, Logan's awake. Mammary Time!

Almost two months

Logan is almost two months old, so I thought I'd finally post something, even a video! Don't you feel special?

I look like hell, of course, but Logan is just too damn cute to keep this video to myself.



Everything else has been going good. Logan "talks" all the time now. He only wakes up about once a night, but he seems to demand getting out of bed at 9am every morning. Which to most of you probably seems reasonable, but unless I'm taking classes, I don't usually crawl out of bed until 11 or 12. It's been great though, and I can't imagine loving anyone the way I love Logan.

Speaking of heart matters, I might have an actual date coming up soon, which is exciting. I haven't been on a real date in about 5 years, so I'm a bit nervous, but it should be fun. Wish me luck!

One Month Old

Logan is one month old today. I have to take some pictures of him, because I need like fifty thousand one month old pictures just for all his baby stuff. They need to make baby books for dogs...puppy books I guess. I wish I had taken more pictures of Zeus when he was a pup.

Things have been going really well. Logan is incredible to be around. He's definitely the cutest baby I've ever seen, but I'm probably a bit biased. It's weird though, I was told that I would never get any sleep and would be up all night with him. I fully expected it, too. But Logan sleeps pretty much through the night. I usually only have to wake up twice to pop my boob in his mouth and occasionally change a dirty diaper and then we're both back to sleep. It's been this way since I got home from the hospital. Maybe some babies are just like that, I don't know.

He's been making little sounds a lot more now. Just little goo's and stuff, and he smiles more often. It's really cute. I can't wait til he laughs.

Besides baby stuff, I've just been trying not to wear myself out. We went to the huge IKEA store here in Atlanta awhile ago and I really just shouldn't have gone. It was way too much walking for me right now. I was really hurting the next day. I'm ok with little things though, like going to the grocery store or the book store.

Speaking of the book store, I finally got a copy of Watchmen and I really like it so far. The characters seem like real people, despite the fact that they dress up in costumes to fight crime. They are psychologically real people with their own real problems and vices. I've read graphic novels and manga before, but this is definitely a different experience.

I don't have much time to read lately, but I get in a few pages every now and then. I don't know what I'd do without Mom and Dad. They help so much. I also have a feeling my aunts and uncles will be coming back soon. Logan already misses them, and I know they've bonded with him now. Haha, we got you now! There's no escape.

I finally downloaded the Resident Evil 5 demo on my PS3. It's pretty much just like RE4, which I still think defies the whole idea of Resident Evil, but it is kinda fun. I'll just have to get used to it I guess. At least this one will have Wesker in it, hopefully it'll explain more about him. You probably have no idea what I'm talking about.

I was going to try to take some pictures and video to post on this entry, but it seems Logan is hungry. It'll have to wait I guess.

He's here!

Logan Joseph Soto
2/12/2009
11:51am
7lbs 13oz

So we're home, finally, and I have a new baby boy. It was quite an experience, though.

I starting getting contractions on the 10th, but they never really got bad. I went in to get induced on the 11th at 9pm. After the put in the medicine to soften my cervix my contractions started in earnest. They gave me some pain medicine around 1 or 2am and I finally got to sleep for about 2 hours. After that the pain was a bit too much to sleep through. I had some bad pains starting around 8am I'd say, and then when I was finally dilated to 5cm they came to give me an epidural.

I was really scared of getting one, even though I knew I wanted one. I'd heard about how they can hurt really bad, or even get put in wrong. I had to sit at the edge of the bed and arch my back into the doctors needle. All I really felt was him giving me a local shot to numb it a bit, and then I got a contraction so I was concentrating on that pain and I didn't feel him put in the epidural at all. After about 20 minutes or so my legs were completely numb and I couldn't feel the contractions anymore. The epidural itself made me shake uncontrollably, and they eventually had to come give me an oxygen mask because Logan's heart rate was dropping.

The doctor came in around 11am to check me. She said I was at 7cm dilation and wanted to break my water. I didn't feel it, of course, but after she broke it I felt Logan shift hard upward, toward my chest. Then my doctor said, "Hmm...That's weird." And a nurse said, "That's not really something you want to hear your doctor say." Apparently her breaking my water scared Logan out of position. His rate started jumping all over the place and my contractions weren't dilating me anymore, so they decided to do an emergency c-section.

They rolled me into the room by myself at first, which was scary. I was still shaking uncontrollably from the epidural, and I was very scared that I was going to feel them cut me. It seemed to take forever. I smelled burning skin and felt a lot of pressure, and then finally mom saw Logan's head coming out.

When I heard him cry the first time I started crying, too. It was a very strange feeling.

I still can't believe I had a baby. It still feels unreal. I never thought I could love something so much.

During the worst of the contractions, when they were so bad I could have easily screamed and I could do nothing but concentrate on not screaming and they were coming one minute apart and sometimes not stopping for 3 or 4 minutes, all I could think was, "This is just one day...one day out of my entire life...this is just one day."

It was so worth it.





Here's the nursery web page to see more pictures of Logan, you'll need this password to get in to see them: 11821258673751

http://www.our365.com/

Overdue

So I am officially overdue now, and I thought that would merit a blog post. I've not really been super busy or anything, but it just seems like I've not had much time to post anything.

The waiting sucks, really bad. I thought for sure Logan would be here by now. Every little pain I get now makes me think he's coming, but it always turns out to be nothing. I kind of feel like a masochist, because I keep hoping I'll wake up in extreme pain every night.

It still seems very dreamlike to me. I don't think it will hit me completely until I get to see his face. I mean, I know there's something alive in there, it's easy to tell now. It just hasn't sunk in. It's a weird feeling, hard to explain.

Everything else has been going ok. There's still some people out there that like to talk all kinds of crap like they know what I'm thinking, but what's important now is that I have a healthy delivery, so I'm just trying not to let that stuff get to me.

Everything is going to change so much, and I'm scared, honestly, but really excited, too. I still can't wait until I get to bring Logan home and introduce him to Zeus. Zeus has always been so good with kids, he lets them get away with things he won't even let me do, like climb on top of him and pull his ears. I just can't wait to see Logan grow up with two big doggies and play with them.

It's going to be hard to go back to school this summer. I'm really enjoying my break, but things are about to get really busy. I think I'll be ok, since I have mom and dad to help me, but it's not going to be easy. The rest of the classes I need are pretty much all upper level, tougher material.

It's going to be an interesting year ahead, that's for sure.

Family Dynamics

Four weeks left until Logan comes out. It's still really crazy when I think about it. It's going to be so weird having a baby here. Our neat little family dynamic might change, or it might not. I'm not too sure how it will affect things, but I know it will be interesting.

A lot of people seem to think that I only live at home because I haven't grown up, or because I'm scared, or who knows why. Lemme just explain: I live here because this is my home.

I'm no longer just the child living with her parents. While that may be how it is physically here, it's not how it is emotionally. I see my parents more as my partners in life. They're still my parents, sure, and deserve more respect than I would show other people (although they might argue that sometimes @__@), but I see them more and more as part of my team. They seem to feel the same way, since they entrust me with the same information that they entrust each other with.

Things we do now affect each of us. I get paid to go to school, that money goes into the bank, which we all have access to. When I graduate from college (soon, hopefully), I'll get a job somewhere. If I have to move, guess who's coming with me?

I can never see myself leaving here. These people are the only people in the world that have never cheated me or betrayed me. They love me unconditionally and way more than anyone else ever has. Some people tell me I'll never grow up living at home, that I should be out on my own, working and going to school all by myself.

Are you fecking crazy? Why would I purposefully make this crap harder on myself? I have a team here that backs me absolutely. If I had left before, I would have had to figure a lot of this crap out on my own, but instead I have experienced teachers here that only have my best interests in mind. Who in their right mind would give that up?

I don't understand why more people haven't realized this. Sure, I like independence just as much as the next person, but I have more of it here than I would on my own. I am backed here by people that love me, that grants more freedom than most people think.

My parents and I no longer have just a parent-child relationship. We're partners in a crazy world, and I'm glad as hell for that.

Six Weeks to Go

So it's been forever since I posted. Sorry about that, I haven't really been much in the mood. Lots of crap has been happening lately, and I'm sure whoever reads this has heard at least one version of the story. Suffice it to say, it's getting harder and harder for me to write on this blog without telling all about what's happened. Honestly though, I'd rather not deal with what that would bring.

Logan's room is finally complete (unless I decide to add more to it, that is). I think everything looks great and it's all sooo cute! Everyone that came for Christmas loved it, with the exception of the father, of course. I don't think he really even looked twice at any of it; he certainly didn't ask to see it or mention what he thought of any of it.

Anyway, here's some pictures of it for those of you that haven't seen it. This first one just shows a little bit of the clothes we've already got for him, the rest of his clothes are in the dresser.

This used to be in our kitchen, painted brown. Mom had the excellent idea of using it as a changing table. I think it looks perfect!

I've wanted that Wolf's Rain wall scroll for probably about 3 years now. It's always been one of my favorites, I just never thought I had a place to put it since my walls in my room are completely covered. I think it looks great in there, though, and kinda matches that puppy theme. >_> Kinda.

I just want to say thanks again to Aunt Genie and Aunt Reese. The Bananafish Spot decorations are sooo adorable, I love them so much!

My Christmas went pretty good, considering. It could have been a lot worse, and probably would have been if I hadn't held back everything. Still, it was great to see my sister, her husband and the kids. I still can't believe me and Sarah beat everyone in Trivial Pursuit, we are so smart. @_@ (not really...we got really lucky :D)

Oh, if anyone needs the link to the 4-D ultrasound pictures, here it is:
http://www.dotphoto.com/go.asp?l=bfi&P=Soto&AID=5670822&CID=0&T=1&E=Y

Me and mom are working on getting my hospital bag packed. I'm just trying to make sure I don't forget anything. I've been making an I-pod playlist to listen to while I'm in there, but I don't know if I'm picking the right music. I'm just trying to pick anything that makes me calm and soothed, and so far that's mostly video game music. That doesn't really surprise me much, but what does is that most of it is from Silent Hill games. I guess I'm just weird that way. @___@

Well, it's 1:30 in the morning, and I'm tired. I shall leave you all with a picture of our new doormat. Yes, we really have this, and yes, I do think it's hilarious, and if you don't, then you totally don't deserve to be reading this blog:

Babies, animals and band (Oh my!)

Yesterday was my birthday. I can't believe I'm 26. I still feel 18, seriously. It was fun though, I got some nice presents and we got to go eat sushi, which is always great even though I can't have beer at the moment. I got Animal Crossing for the Wii, and I luuurves it. There's a sheep in my town named Baabara, which I giggle about everytime I talk to her. (It really doesn't take much for me @_@)

Today was our Holiday band concert. It was informal, in the lobby of the student center, but it was fun. We had a cake and coffee and hot chocolate and stuff and it seemed like everyone enjoyed it. I'm glad I joined band, it's nice to have friends to just goof around with but still have some common goal in mind.

Mom took some pictures of me today, and since everyone's been asking me for one I figured I'd go ahead and post one. I look huge, but at least I have an excuse now. :D


That's all you get unless you're family, so you better be happy with it. @_@

Everything else is going good so far. The animals are doing good. I haven't posted any pictures of them in awhile, so I took some for you (I know I know, how could I wait so long!?):

Kitties warming bellies by the fire.

Zeus sleeping. I love it when he curls up in a lil ball. Ok...a big ball. >_>

Luna. I love this picture of her, even though she's half blinking.

Thor likes to be covered up when he sleeps, even his head.

We got the baby's room almost all done. I took out all my video game systems (see.. I'm sacrificing >_>) and the TV stand and moved in an old style buffet table we painted white to use as a changing table. It looks great in there, when we finish it I'll post some pictures of it. Although I doubt that room will be used much, but when we're upstairs he will be changed in there I guess. He's gonna be sleeping with me for awhile just because it'll be easier to nurse that way.

I'ma go back to playing my video games now while I have the chance. @_@

Seven Months

So tomorrow will be the beginning of my seventh month. Doctor says I have twelve weeks, and when she put it like that, it seems like I'm almost done.

School is sooo close to being over that I'm starting to get really anxious. I got back my Zoology test today. He told the class that the class average was a 72, which is a low C, and the highest grade was a 92, which is an A. I got mine back and it was a 92. :D

I know I did well, but this was the hardest test in this class because of all the Latin names. It was mostly over Arthropods, which is the biggest phylum there is. I had probably over 20 Latin names to learn, distinguish between, and be able to tell if they were class or order or genus, and to which each belonged. I missed a few of the multiple choice and crap but the matching was perfect and my essay answers where perfect.

I was extremely happy about that, if I can come out of this with an A then a C in Trig won't be horrible. I'm aiming for a B still, but we'll see how the final goes.

My "Faith" post seemed to stir up a little bit of hits for my blog, which I was happy about. It seems as though most people actually read it and respected it, I only had one person admit they skimmed it and then told me I must have been really bored. Really, that just makes me realize that this person doesn't have much respect for what I think, so I really don't think I care to hear his opinion anyway. =/

I've apparently gained 25 pounds total so far, which isn't too bad. It's weird though, I don't feel like I've gotten any bigger except in my belly. My legs and arms and stuff all look the same, so I dunno. I can definitely feel my stomach on my thighs now when I sit down, which is very weird. I haven't had a really flat stomach for about 5 years now, but at least it was never this big before.

Things are going great, though, and soon everything will pay off. I know this probably sounds weird, but I can't wait for the baby to meet Zeus and Thor. I foresee many, many squealings at cuteness in my future.