Family Dynamics
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Four weeks left until Logan comes out. It's still really crazy when I think about it. It's going to be so weird having a baby here. Our neat little family dynamic might change, or it might not. I'm not too sure how it will affect things, but I know it will be interesting.
A lot of people seem to think that I only live at home because I haven't grown up, or because I'm scared, or who knows why. Lemme just explain: I live here because this is my home.
I'm no longer just the child living with her parents. While that may be how it is physically here, it's not how it is emotionally. I see my parents more as my partners in life. They're still my parents, sure, and deserve more respect than I would show other people (although they might argue that sometimes @__@), but I see them more and more as part of my team. They seem to feel the same way, since they entrust me with the same information that they entrust each other with.
Things we do now affect each of us. I get paid to go to school, that money goes into the bank, which we all have access to. When I graduate from college (soon, hopefully), I'll get a job somewhere. If I have to move, guess who's coming with me?
I can never see myself leaving here. These people are the only people in the world that have never cheated me or betrayed me. They love me unconditionally and way more than anyone else ever has. Some people tell me I'll never grow up living at home, that I should be out on my own, working and going to school all by myself.
Are you fecking crazy? Why would I purposefully make this crap harder on myself? I have a team here that backs me absolutely. If I had left before, I would have had to figure a lot of this crap out on my own, but instead I have experienced teachers here that only have my best interests in mind. Who in their right mind would give that up?
I don't understand why more people haven't realized this. Sure, I like independence just as much as the next person, but I have more of it here than I would on my own. I am backed here by people that love me, that grants more freedom than most people think.
My parents and I no longer have just a parent-child relationship. We're partners in a crazy world, and I'm glad as hell for that.
A lot of people seem to think that I only live at home because I haven't grown up, or because I'm scared, or who knows why. Lemme just explain: I live here because this is my home.
I'm no longer just the child living with her parents. While that may be how it is physically here, it's not how it is emotionally. I see my parents more as my partners in life. They're still my parents, sure, and deserve more respect than I would show other people (although they might argue that sometimes @__@), but I see them more and more as part of my team. They seem to feel the same way, since they entrust me with the same information that they entrust each other with.
Things we do now affect each of us. I get paid to go to school, that money goes into the bank, which we all have access to. When I graduate from college (soon, hopefully), I'll get a job somewhere. If I have to move, guess who's coming with me?
I can never see myself leaving here. These people are the only people in the world that have never cheated me or betrayed me. They love me unconditionally and way more than anyone else ever has. Some people tell me I'll never grow up living at home, that I should be out on my own, working and going to school all by myself.
Are you fecking crazy? Why would I purposefully make this crap harder on myself? I have a team here that backs me absolutely. If I had left before, I would have had to figure a lot of this crap out on my own, but instead I have experienced teachers here that only have my best interests in mind. Who in their right mind would give that up?
I don't understand why more people haven't realized this. Sure, I like independence just as much as the next person, but I have more of it here than I would on my own. I am backed here by people that love me, that grants more freedom than most people think.
My parents and I no longer have just a parent-child relationship. We're partners in a crazy world, and I'm glad as hell for that.
