He's here!

Logan Joseph Soto
2/12/2009
11:51am
7lbs 13oz

So we're home, finally, and I have a new baby boy. It was quite an experience, though.

I starting getting contractions on the 10th, but they never really got bad. I went in to get induced on the 11th at 9pm. After the put in the medicine to soften my cervix my contractions started in earnest. They gave me some pain medicine around 1 or 2am and I finally got to sleep for about 2 hours. After that the pain was a bit too much to sleep through. I had some bad pains starting around 8am I'd say, and then when I was finally dilated to 5cm they came to give me an epidural.

I was really scared of getting one, even though I knew I wanted one. I'd heard about how they can hurt really bad, or even get put in wrong. I had to sit at the edge of the bed and arch my back into the doctors needle. All I really felt was him giving me a local shot to numb it a bit, and then I got a contraction so I was concentrating on that pain and I didn't feel him put in the epidural at all. After about 20 minutes or so my legs were completely numb and I couldn't feel the contractions anymore. The epidural itself made me shake uncontrollably, and they eventually had to come give me an oxygen mask because Logan's heart rate was dropping.

The doctor came in around 11am to check me. She said I was at 7cm dilation and wanted to break my water. I didn't feel it, of course, but after she broke it I felt Logan shift hard upward, toward my chest. Then my doctor said, "Hmm...That's weird." And a nurse said, "That's not really something you want to hear your doctor say." Apparently her breaking my water scared Logan out of position. His rate started jumping all over the place and my contractions weren't dilating me anymore, so they decided to do an emergency c-section.

They rolled me into the room by myself at first, which was scary. I was still shaking uncontrollably from the epidural, and I was very scared that I was going to feel them cut me. It seemed to take forever. I smelled burning skin and felt a lot of pressure, and then finally mom saw Logan's head coming out.

When I heard him cry the first time I started crying, too. It was a very strange feeling.

I still can't believe I had a baby. It still feels unreal. I never thought I could love something so much.

During the worst of the contractions, when they were so bad I could have easily screamed and I could do nothing but concentrate on not screaming and they were coming one minute apart and sometimes not stopping for 3 or 4 minutes, all I could think was, "This is just one day...one day out of my entire life...this is just one day."

It was so worth it.





Here's the nursery web page to see more pictures of Logan, you'll need this password to get in to see them: 11821258673751

http://www.our365.com/

Overdue

So I am officially overdue now, and I thought that would merit a blog post. I've not really been super busy or anything, but it just seems like I've not had much time to post anything.

The waiting sucks, really bad. I thought for sure Logan would be here by now. Every little pain I get now makes me think he's coming, but it always turns out to be nothing. I kind of feel like a masochist, because I keep hoping I'll wake up in extreme pain every night.

It still seems very dreamlike to me. I don't think it will hit me completely until I get to see his face. I mean, I know there's something alive in there, it's easy to tell now. It just hasn't sunk in. It's a weird feeling, hard to explain.

Everything else has been going ok. There's still some people out there that like to talk all kinds of crap like they know what I'm thinking, but what's important now is that I have a healthy delivery, so I'm just trying not to let that stuff get to me.

Everything is going to change so much, and I'm scared, honestly, but really excited, too. I still can't wait until I get to bring Logan home and introduce him to Zeus. Zeus has always been so good with kids, he lets them get away with things he won't even let me do, like climb on top of him and pull his ears. I just can't wait to see Logan grow up with two big doggies and play with them.

It's going to be hard to go back to school this summer. I'm really enjoying my break, but things are about to get really busy. I think I'll be ok, since I have mom and dad to help me, but it's not going to be easy. The rest of the classes I need are pretty much all upper level, tougher material.

It's going to be an interesting year ahead, that's for sure.